Wonderings, randomness and keeping it all at bay...

I have some very loyal followers, even ones that aren't in the follow list, and they are telling me exactly how long it has been since my last post.  I know I said after I got all the computers cleaned off I would post and get back to it in a more routine fashion...  Ahem.  I really thought that would be the case.  After spending the two days on computer work and anti virus protection and all that, I discovered that I may have another virus on my laptop!  Very stinking frustrating!  And before all you Mac users shake your head at me, I hear you but I cannot change 5 machines into Macs in this economy!

I don't have a ton of time so I figured a list would do me wonders!

  :-: New Project is going swimmingly and I feel as though I will be able to launch in another month or so.  Don't hold me to that - It's a God thing and I have to work on His timeline, not mine!

  :-: Why is it that when you think things will ease up on you it just seems to make room for more pressure in another form?

  :-: When taking ones vitamins is one required to burp up fish oil the remainder of the day when all one wants is to not creak when one walks?

  :-:  I think my Wii is trying to kill me...

  :-:  I still love my dog, my phone and my car and not necessarily in that order!

  :-:  Wish I could leave my face alone without having on acrylic nails...  I am as bad as a teenager with my fidgety self!

  :-:  When I look around I am rejuvenated at the thought of Spring.  I may even be motivated enough to get my gardens in!  (With a little help from my friends!)

  :-:  Sooooo excited about my new web program!  Resisting the urge to lose myself in redesigning the site all over again...  Although that constitutes work, right?  I mean I'm not doing nothing, I'm developing our business, right?  (See what I'm up against?)

I hope your days come and go with the ease and wonderment of small children! (eewww, where did that come from?)

See you soon!

A day wasted...

 I have spent the last two days (yes, a full two) repairing and cleaning up five (no exaggeration, 5!) computers of various spyware, malware and viruses....  Can I just say, blech!

I am enjoying the fact that I have a much faster connection and I am not constantly dealing with crashes...  This is good.  What is not good?  The fact that I still have more computer work to do and I have this eyeball vibration going on from staring at the screen too long...  ARGH!

Alas...  Hopefully once I am done I can wrap my head around an actual blog post.  (But don't count on it!)

Blessings, babies and random thoughts...

I woke up this morning after dreaming all night about my niece, Lexi.  I cannot tell you how much I wish I lived closer.  Daddy has pneumonia and Mommy has to travel next week.  Things are so hard when you have to leave little ones!  I know my sister doesn't read my blog, but I miss you Sis!  I would be there in a heartbeat to help out next week, if I lived just a little closer!  In my dreams Lex was too big... She was using the potty and walking around.  I know my dreams are a reflexion of my eldest hitting teen-dom in a few days, but it made me take stock of what I call important.

 :-: My Girl is turning into a beautiful young woman - I will not lament that fact any longer!  She is not a sullen teen (yet) and I will treasure this time that I will never get back.  I can look at her and know that with God's help, I have done the best job I knew how.

 :-: I will make plans to visit my niece at least twice a year!  I can do that...  I think.  I will do that!  I will not allow myself to be the Aunty we don't recognize.  My kids love my sister, and I will love on that little baby all I possibly can!

 :-: I will be thankful for the people that really get me.  Those that don't just check in, but truly understand who I am and what makes me tick, cry and love them back!

 :-:  I will get my taxes done in time to send them to my overworked Accountant.  I will use whatever monies to make our lives easier and less stressful.

 :-:  I will use my extra time to continue writing.  I have actual chapters now...  Scary!  I will trust God with those results, because I know He can do it better!

 :-:  I will look forward to more snow because 1) I know it is coming and 2) it means not paying $5K for loads of hay to be delivered!

 :-:  I will not allow the stresses of the day to reduce me to tears for the rest of the month (hey, it's a start!).  I will pray when I feel like crying and trust when I feel like running away!

 :-:  I will decide to concentrate on my girls trip that is 46 days away...  Woohooo!

I'm not ready

Girl is turning 13 on Monday.  I am not ready.  I thought that I would be ready when the time came to usher my eldest child into her teens.  I am not.

I am not ready to teach her to shave her legs and her armpits.  I am not ready to be on the lookout for her monthly visitor.  I am not ready for the first young man that I have to murder and hide the body because he broke my little munchkin's heart.  I am not ready.

I still want to be a teenager myself, listening to all the cool music and running from the kitchen during dinner prep when I hear that Top Model is back on...  I am not ready to be that mom yet.  The mom who has to say no to things and fret about the choices she makes.  Good thing she is such an amazing kid...  Doesn't get caught up in the wirlwind of popular or trendy or going steady.  Firmly states she isn't interested.  Thank you Lord!

Do you think she might be a doll and wait?  Wait until I feel ready?  No?  Me neither.  Guess I have to just get ready...

The rigors of ranch life wherein she laments the timeliness of electrical failures

Ah yes!  The romantic picture of living ones life, secluded and isolated on a ranch in Eastern Colorado. The mountains are majestic, the breeze is chilled and one can truly appreciate how your ancestors lived on this range ranching and farming since the early 1800's... 

Until one wakes in 2010 to stumble from the bathroom and into the kitchen where one wishes only to make one a cup of coffee since one is no where near a Starbucks.  One is a bit bleary eyed due to one's reluctance to break up giggling girls at 11:30 last night and so one does not fully comprehend the magnitude or the simple fact that there is no water coming out of the dratted tap!  One turns on light fixture after light fixture determining over the blare of video games on the large flat screen tv that there is power, just no water.

Stumbling to the laundry room where the magic fuse box is located, one realizes that there is no fuse for the well pump located there.  One curses under one's breath as one realizes that one must determine the course of action both a) alone without one's husband to make such boy-determined decisions 2) before one has had one's coffee that is so vital to making sense at 7 am and Thirdly - It's freakin Sunday and this is going to cost a FORTUNE!.

After a few text messages, two phone calls and some mushing kids outside to test hydrants it is determined that I will be without running water (hello 1800!) for at least 24 hours.  Father in law has come to inspect and verify that I need to call out the pump guys so there is nothing more to do than sit tight and wait for tomorrow's less expensive sun to shine upon us.

I have a few blessings to count: 1 - I have power to run the coffee maker on bottled water.  2 - I have bottled water.  3 - the barn is on a seperate well and a seperate pump (replaced 3 years ago) so I have limitless water to haul for toilet flushing and bottle refilling and I don't have to find water to haul to horses (WHEW!) 4 - I have propane to heat the house that has power and I can cook if I can use bottled water or send kids to the barn for pitchers of water.

I also have some words of wisdom...  Don't live on a horse ranch, no matter how romantic you think it is, it is not!  Don't marry a horse trainer - They are very handy individuals, but the travel requirements dictate that their handiness will be soundly out of reach when you need it most.  And last but not least - Never take one seriously who hasn't had her coffee quota for the morning! 

The views expressed in this blog post are soundly disclaimed to be relevant to anything other than the fact that I haven't had my coffee yet!