Ah, do you remember when...

I hate New Years Resolutions.  Not because I can't list.  I think all of us know I can.  I hate New Years Resolutions because I think we set ourselves up for failure and then peruse our list to flog ourselves about how we didn't loose the weight, the excercise routine only lasted a mere 3 days, and we did NOT keep the laundry room clean!  I have but one "Resolution" this year and it is simple.

I resolve to flow.

(Hubby would grin and shake his head at the "hippy-ness" of that statement.)

I resolve to live in the moment more, enjoy what I have more, strive less and flow.

Do you remember the flow?  That blissful place you were, long about 11 or 12 years old, before puberty and yet after awareness set in about how weird your parents were, freaking out over parties and how clean the house was or wasn't...  Remember flow?  I do.  I want it back.  I resolve to pursue my flow.

I will flow into my creativeness in my card room.  I will flow into my job as a wife, business owner, partner and client confidant.  I will flow more.  I will.

So there it is...  My one "non-resolution", if you will.  I am going to go with the flow!

Tis the season...

There are certain times of year that just stick with you.  From childhood on, good or bad, they become this thing you deal with for the rest of your life.  Fortunately for me, my experiences with Christmas have by and large been good ones and I enjoy the season.  I love the smells and the fellowship, the cheer and the drinks, the presents under a tree decorated to bending under the weight...

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I seem to over schedule this time of year more than most. The Client Christmas party is before the actual holiday, and I love the preparations.  I love putting together the baskets, making the small items and finding incredible deals that help us make it special and individualized...  This year I even made carmel corn for the first time! I love all the parties and the folks you get to see.  I love the "holiday cheer" served up in shiny crystal glasses and the sound of laughter and chatter and conversations all around the house.  I love driving to Dad's and watching his latest light show and all the different music he uses...  (We refer to Dad as "Sparky" from National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation.)  And speaking of Christmas Vacation, this was the year I finally purchased the movie to watch as a family and we all laughed and laughed and laughed.  The kids are finally old enough to know not to repeat the rather colorful language... ("Shitter's Full!" OMG! I love that movie!!!)

As I sit and type this out, Hubby is putting together Boy's new bed that we are hoping will afford him much more room, despite the rather large lizard cage he has to contend with.  There isn't any cussing yet, and there has been lots of child helping, so I will stay out of the room.  Makes being married much easier.  After a bowl of chili I will retire to the bath while he assembles Girl's bed (which she has grand plans to paint lime green...).  Maybe I will even make it into the massage chair - My neck is crying out to me that it is a necessity, not a luxury...

I truly hope that all of you had a wonderful Christmas season.  The New Year looms and I have no illusions of setting any lifelong goals to have fizzle out and frustrate me.  Hubby will be traveling to another horse show on the 31st, so no party this year... Maybe next.

I hope to be back to blogging my regular posts very soon.  I miss it.  Cathartic...  Revealing...  Ethereal...  Bliss.

It's been a while...

You know when life sneaks up on you and you just can't seem to find your proverbial butt with both hands???? Well, no big shock - It has happened to me!

For the last month I have been literally running from one business to the other, not able to figure out what has changed and what has made my schedule a thing of the distant past. I am slowly coming out of a desperate dash into the Christmas season, but I have to say - Still no light at the end of the tunnel. (I am a bit of an optimist. I keep hoping the light isn't that far away, just a twist in the tunnel and I will be out of this in no time!)

I have had some very lovely travels in my sojourn, of late. I was able to spend the first Thanksgiving in maybe 10 years with Hubby and our little family. We simply packed up my lovely Ford Edge and headed south to Oklahoma City. If the darned show schedule won't cooperate, join the silliness and be flexible!!!! (I hate to inform family members here at home, but we had so much fun, we may just make it tradition!) I returned to OKC for the big Finals weekend that has become tradition the following week. After two more days with Hubby, I lit out for Louisiana to see my precious niece. What a joy!!!!!!

All this travel was a little harrying in that I had to rely on others to be here at home and do what I normally do... Well, some of what I do. And it is a very difficult thing for a control freak to do. I literally had to duck my head and ignore a lot of things so that I could just get through. I didn't want to miss out on the plans I had, because those too were very good things. I know my obsessive personality was stretched and I thank those that helped me get a grip! I need to learn to trust more that those I have set in place to help are so very capable... that is why I chose them!

Tonight is the big client Christmas Party and I am almost ready. I am burning off Christmas music to have playing while we all enjoy each other... Thus the splinter in time that I can log in and update my poor list of readers... I thank you for not deserting me as I wandered off into oblivion for a time... Hang in there! I am hoping to be back soon. Maybe. Sort of.

Merry Merry!